believe or not to believe...

At long last, he answered my call telling me that he parked at Ayala to sleep since he was so sleepy while driving on his way home. I don't know if I have to believe. Can't wait to go home and talk to him in person. All I know is I am hurt and I refuse to believe on what he says.

How I wish my thoughts as to where we went were all wrong.

wounded and worried

Supposedly it's our 2nd monthsary.... but i don't know if its gonna be a happy one. Past 10pm of may 28th when he dropped me in the office (graveyard shift). And it's already 3am of the may 29th and still i didn't get any calls from him confirming that he already at home very much safe and sound. Instructed him to send me a message as soon as he came home. I am so worried now that I wanna burst into tears. Worried since there's a lot of bad elements in the streets at night and robbery is so rampant lately. God Forbid. Worried that he may be somewehere else where I don't want him to be. I wanna cry out loud.I don't know what to do, worse I have no one to talk to. Kept on calling at his house but only his cousin or his bro will answer my call.

(Sigh)..Where are you honey?

Sand and Stone

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING

THROUGH THE DESERT.

DURING SOME POINT OF THE

JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN

ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND

SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE

IN THE FACE.

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED

WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT

SAYING ANYTHING,

WROTE IN THE SAND:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND

SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,

UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,

WHERE THEY DECIDED

TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN

SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE

MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,

BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM

THE NEAR DROWNING,

HE WROTE ON A STONE:

"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND

SAVED MY LIFE ".

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED

AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND

ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,

YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,

YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"

THE FRIEND REPLIED D

"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US

WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN

IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF

FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES

SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,

WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE

WHERE NO WIND

CAN EVER ERASE IT."

LEARN TO WRITE

YOUR HURTS IN

THE SAND AND TO

CARVE YOUR

BENEFITS IN STONE.

dismayed

I really hate it when plans are not working out the way it should be. And I hate it when a person promises you something and does not keep his it especially if he can actually make it happen and just don't do it. I don't wanna act like a brat neither sounds like one but I really don't like it especially if I am so excited with how the plan would supposedly happen.

Well, I really haven't learned my lessons then as to not to be excited or expect too much until that thing actually happens.

After a While....

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love does not mean leaning,
and company does not always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts
and presents are not promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up
and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult,
not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because
tomorrow's ground is too uncertain, for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you
get too much. So you plant your own garden and
decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure that you really
are strong and you really do have worth.

And you learn and you learn with every good-bye you learn.

Author: Virginia Shoffstall