feel sick

It's a sunny Monday yet I feel so sick. My head is aching and feels like sleeping all day. But then need to report for work for a lot of tasks to get done. (sigh)

i don't know...

i don't know why tears usually roll down on my cheeks after doing it. Even I myself is still in the process of searching for an answer as to why.

Sand & Stone

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING

THROUGH THE DESERT.

DURING SOME POINT OF THE

JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN

ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND

SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE

IN THE FACE.

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED

WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT

SAYING ANYTHING,

WROTE IN THE SAND:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND

SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,

UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,

WHERE THEY DECIDED

TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN

SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE

MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,

BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM

THE NEAR DROWNING,

HE WROTE ON A STONE:

"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND

SAVED MY LIFE ".

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED

AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND

ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,

YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,

YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"

THE FRIEND REPLIED D

"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US

WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN

IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF

FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES

SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,

WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE

WHERE NO WIND

CAN EVER ERASE IT."

LEARN TO WRITE

YOUR HURTS IN

THE SAND AND TO

CARVE YOUR

BENEFITS IN STONE.

Prayer for Meaningful Work

Loving God, you made us co-creators in the process of your creation, blessing us with wisdom, reason, creativity, and skill. Bless all who seek meaningful employment that they may provide for the well-being of their families. Let those who have more than they need for life's necessities be moved to use their wealth to create new opportunities for others. Let those who have skills be open to sharing the riches of their knowledge with those who seek the opportunity to learn. Let us all learn from one another, for you have blessed every human being with a gift for the benefit of the common good. And thereby enable us by the power of your Holy Spirit to build up the body of Christ on this earth that your name be proclaimed and blessed through the good work of all; in Christ’s name we pray. Amen.

- Vienna Cobb Anderson

Five Reasons to get married and Five Reasons not to get married

Men marry women for the following main reasons:

• The wish to continue the motherly love received in childhood.
• Desire to have a lifetime companion.
• The love the man has for the woman.
• The woman having become pregnant by him.
• To have a woman who has a similar career for easier adaptability.

Women marry men for the following main reasons:

• Wish to escape from parents.
• Desire to have a lifetime companion.
• Love for the man.
• Having become pregnant by the man.
• To have a man having a similar career for easier adaptability.

Reasons for marriage to break up:

• Over-spending by the wife and living beyond the man�s income
• Continuous nagging, comparing the man to others more successful, and giving unwarranted advice
• Infidelity
• Physical incompatibility or sharp decrease in sexual interest
• Conflict in tastes and interests leading to disagreements and fight

Relationship Quiz & Love Test

Love Quiz results of kristie Dear kristie, You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he/she knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him/her. Let your partner know that you love him/her and appreciate that he/she does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him/her what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close and loving one. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work. Relationship and Love Advice at Love-Sessions Do the love test yourself at Love-Sessions.Click HERE.

There’s A New Day Coming!

When the Sun announces the dawning day
Just flex your muscles and start on your way.
Go over, or under, around, or through
Any Obstacles or hurdles that challenge you.
There’s a new day coming.

Cast aside the failures of yesterday.
Forget the peaks and valleys that have paved your way.
Wipe the sweat from your brow and the dust from your shoe.
Take a breath and relax so that you may begin anew.
There’s a new day coming.

Forget the burdens and obstacles that have held you back.
Focus on your dreams and prepare a plan of attack.
There are battles awaiting to challenge your success.
Daring you to stand tall and to give it your best.
There’s a new day coming.

No matter how great the journey, or how heavy the load
How steep the mountain, or how rough the road.
When your arms grow weary and legs give way
Stop and rest for a moment, it will be okay.
There’s a new day coming.

As shadows spring forth from the setting Sun.
Take a moment and savor the battles you’ve won.
Sleep peacefully tonight and enjoy your rest.
Awaken tomorrow and continue your quest.
There’s always, a new day coming.

-- Mychal Wynn

Don't Quit - by John Greenleaf Whittier

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest, if you must, but don't quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

For all the sad words of tongue or pen
The saddest are these: "It might have been!"

happy as I can be...

Last Sunday was one of the best Sundays I've ever had. Things did just happen so perfectly. Simple yet so fulfilling..No amount of words can ever describe it....

where the road leads????

The road seems so vague that I can't see where it leads.

excited for the weekend...

Though I don't have any outing plans for the weekend but still I'm excited since this means no work, no worries and can take a lot of sleep. Oh yeah, I got a birthday party to attend, almost forget about it. And will do some tutorials to Janice on some stuff.

Though I wanna go somewhere but my funds doesn't permit me so. :(

Anyways, that's it for now...

Have a great weekend...

together again.... (Waaaaaaa)

I called him up and told him that we must meet and talk since I just broke to him that we'll cool off for the meantime through chat. I insisted that we should meet even if it sounds like he doesn't want to. Primary reason is for us to talk things out. I met him at the office where he used to work, he was asked to help them on some problems with their website that is why he was there. When I arrived he just welcomed me his warm embrace. He embrace me so tight that I barely can breathe. Then I realize I am missing him so much, did he miss me too? I believe so. He looks so tired then, I don't know if he had slept last night. Seeing him again and feeling his warm embrace made me tell myself that I'd still wanna stay with him and work the relationship out. Hope he feels the same.

Actually, we really feel the same way since there was never lots of talks done, we just agreed to have everything back to normal. So no need to waste any words or explanation whatsoever.

Business as usual... :)

friends indeed!!

I've always been grateful that I am surrounded with lots of real friends. Whom I can count on through good times and bad times. Thanks for ALWAYS being there guys... luv yah.. mwah..

cool off....

Yes, we just decided to cool it off. Don't know for how long or will we be back in each other's arms again....Only Heaven knows.. Though I initiated the action since I feel like he needs some space and time to think of things but still there's pain and fear that I felt. Fear of losing him forever and pain since for some time now I have learned to love him too. As much as I'd like to take back what I've just said a while ago but then I have to be strong and stick to my words.I don't know if this is right but this is the least thing I could think of right now.

My regret was why I was doing it through chat. I could have just have it face to face with him. But still I planned to talk to him in person about this.

Well, for what will be the future, I just let things fall into place, if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be.

despite the typhoon....

A typhoon was said to strike tonight and my papa did not allow me to go for work since work hours start at 11pm till 8am of the following day.

Funny or silly it is that despite the heavy rain and the strong winds, me and my boyfriend still managed to see other. We just can't get through the night without seeing and hugging each other tight....(hehehe) We met at the mini grocery store nearby our place and after buying a box of pizza , we proceeded to his place...watch a teleseries, modify my blog, and a little chit chats with his house mates.

An hour after, he sends me home cause cinderella has to go home before 12 midnight strikes (hehehe). Actually my papa sends me a sms that I need to be home now cause of the bad weather (how old am I that I am still alarmed with my papa's sms?? duh... papa's gurl!). As much as we'd like the night not to end and still be together but then we have to separate ways now..

Till next time! (mwah!) :)

wasn't able to make it...

My plan of breaking up or probably a cool off depending on what we'll agreed on was a failure. I wasn't able to make it. (loser)

Had a heart to heart talk with him after a dinner and pour out half of my emotions. I was quite tongue tied then, my thoughts & feelings were not all put into words.How I wish he could just read all of them and so there is no need for me to express it. All the things that I've memorized were vanished in the air. Probably because I don't want to hurt, worse, pressure him with our relationship. That's the last thing that I'm gonna do. Though somehow it sounds like I am pressuring him now.

At some instances, he has a point why all the things that I want would not happen that quickly. Which made me realize he is a man who respects others feelings and that he has a big heart and a gentle man. Gentle man or he just still loves her that much till now? Possibly yes, pity me and lucky her. How I wish I am the only one who occupies that big heart of his and what he feels for her right now is just a respect to the past and sympathy for the one in grief.... (sigh)

sick and tired...

I've come to realize that this is totally unfair... I don't wanna be treated like this. Tears are running down through my cheeks and I don't care if my officemates would saw me this way. I’ve tried to understand everybody elses side but what about mine? I just can no longer handle this. I need to think of myself too.. And I guess my understanding & patience for them is all up to now.

I can't just remain hidden forever. He can't even afford to post a single pic of us together to his friendster account. So sick and tired of this situation. And I have a feeling I'm the only one who is proud of this relationship. Damn it!

Pity on me... but no... self pity has no place in my personality. I should come up with a firm decision the soonest possible. I can’t endure being hidden forever. If he can’t be proud of me might as well put an end to all of these. Might be painful but for sure with God’s grace I’ll get over this.

ISP sucks...

Our internet connection sucks. I wanted to do a lot of things online but how could that possibly be without the internet.

Can't even download my mail messages. Don't know if there's task sent by Sean today. Aghhh.....

start anew

Sounds silly but this is the only thing that came into my mind, for our relationship to be alright. It's not that it is all wrong but in a way we started a wrong step. Everything was unclear, so complicated. So I decided to start anew. I asked him to court me again, at least this time we now know how we feel and where we stand to each other. Me into him and him into me... no strings attached...

Hope this time, things will be better. Less misunderstandings and focused more on how to build the relationship stronger.

bum..bum..bum..

Long weekend is over. We're now in a boat on our way back home, bid the so-called Island Paradise goodbye and face the world again with a pang of pain in my heart. How I wish this boat ride wont last...the sound of the sea waves ease the pain that I felt and makes me think of nothing else. I don't wanna step on the shore cause stepping on it means the ride is over and I leave me no choice but to face the reality.

Our 2-day vacation wasn't as exciting and romantic as I've expected it to be. Just as I thought was the perfect night for us : lying at the beach and feeling the sea breeze with all the stars in heaven when something very unexpected came up. Well, should I say not that unexpected because somehow I have some suspicions that something fishy is really going on, blamed it to women's intuition. And probably God doesn't want me to fooled for a long time and so He find ways for it to be revealed. Intellectually, I know what I am supposed to do but my emotions are overpowering me.In my whole existence, I never thought I could be this "tanga" and forgiving. But then everybody deserves a second chance so might as well give him the chance too...