life is too short...

I can’t imagine how fast things go. Just last night at almost 11pm I saw my brother and his buddy Atoy at the bakeshop. It was Atoy’s day off I suppose. He works as a Medical Transcriptionist at Global Solutions and is on a graveyard shift. Never in my mind it occur that that would be the last time that I am going to see him alive. I was even teasing him before I left them.

6 am today, I heard someone crying. I thought it was just from a housemate who was having a bad dream or something. That usually happens at our house actually. But then the cry was so loud that made me went out of my room up and see what’s really going on. I saw my brother crying on his knees and with my younger sister besides him trying to comfort. I asked what had happened and in between his sobbing, he uttered, “ Atoy was shoot three times along the highway of Liloan and was killed.

I can’t believe what I’ve heard. Unbelievable but this is it. This is really what is happening. I don’t know what to feel and what to say. I feel sorry for my brother who was traumatized with the incident and blaming himself for having done nothing. And I feel sorry for Atoy for dying so young and in that terrible way. I feel sorry for his family he left behind who loves him and treasures him. His mother who is kinda physically weak.

The case was said to be a robbery. Someone heard that Atoy was saying to the perpetrator to just take his mobile phone. Don’t know what other arguments they have that made this guy shoot him thrice. My brother upon hearing the explosion run to the nearest store and ask for some help. A couple of minutes rescuers came in and Atoy was brought to the hospital. But sad to say he was dead on arrival.

As it has always been said over and over again, life is too short. So treasure every moments you’ve got, gather moments while you may for you’ll never know if that moment will ever come again..

To Atoy may your soul finds peace in God’s arms. You will always remain in our hearts.

happy sad...

Things are quite well today. Thanks God and thanks to my buddy who keeps me going despite the emotional turmoil that I am undergoing right now. :)

are they happy?

I was able to read the blog of my ex's wifey. After reading it, some questions keep lingering on my mind, doesn't he loves her or weren't they happy with their married life? Well, maybe they are just still in the adjustment period and it can't be avoided that there are these minor clashes.

hehe..huhu

I was never wrong with my insights! Women’s intuition…. Well, as it has always been said, believe in your instincts cause most of the time those were the truth as long as you have the basis. Though its kinda frustrating and somehow hurting me but I am grateful upon knowing the truth. But a part of me still questioning whether I was hearing the truth or was I some kinda being trapped? Was she just trying to see what my reactions would be or what? Whatever it is I still have to find out. I need to be vigilant.

contagious emotions...

Call it coincidence or what! But among my close girl friends in the office, almost all of them are in the state of loneliness right now. I've heard all there stories and the pain that they've felt caused by the break up or by the physical separation from there loved ones. As a friend I was trying to be a crying shoulder and lending my ears for them to be able to let out what is there that is in their hearts and minds. I myself have my own weariness and loneliness but thanks God I have my cousin and a best friend at home whom I can tell whatever it is that's bothering me. And who always cheers me up when I am sad and lonely.

But what sounds silly was that after hearing all their stories, suddenly I felt some emptiness in me. Was I absorbing all the emotions they've felt. It was past 12 am already and still I can't sleep. I've called up my close friends just for nothing. Jen who knows me for quite a long time was even shocked why I was calling her at that wee hour knowing that I usually went early to sleep on weekdays. She instantly said "got some problems? Okey whatever it is I am willing to listen."I even sent a message to my officemate just telling him how I felt. Absorber as I am! Well that only shows I am that vulnerable yet trying to be invincible.

hope i am wrong

I hope I am wrong with my doubts because I don’t think I’d still want to befriend them still if I’ll find out that I am right. Not to praise my own self but I know I am a good person and if ever the goodness is being used and abused, well then sorry cause you’ll definitely not going to see any shadow of me or hear anything from me. Hope I am just being paranoid.

Secret Revealed.... :(

And I was on the hot seat again! My secret was revealed. We were on a night out with my two other officemates, just having a cup of coffee in a newly opened night market in the city after having our dinner at a Thai restaurant. After an hour of sitting outside the coffee shop and making a comment to the passersby, the lights were turned on me. I was kinda nervous when one of my officemate says she got one question for me and is hoping for a straight answer. And the question was fired which made me admit the truth. I know they know the answers already they just want a confirmation. Well, I trust the two ladies and I know that my secret is safe with them. Not that big deal actually it’s just that I don’t want everyone to know about it. I was glad to hear their feedbacks anyway.