Thursday, October 25, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Hopefully we'll stick to our words when we all agreed to leave whatever secrets have been told in that four corners of the wall.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
For all the reasons in the world, it would not be a pleasant and healthy relationship, if ever, whether in the eyes of men and in the eyes of the one above . It would definitely be offensive if in case they decided to be together. It may not be that easy as it seems to the girl but it would not get even easier if ever they'll get any further. The more complicated things would be and the more it would be harder for them to get out from it. She just have to accept the fact and bear the consequences for her to be able to move on a bit faster. In the first place, she knows where she stands. It's just so sad that she had to learn or realize it the hard way. And to you boy, as if you are reading this : it's cool to be you! But then you just have to stop being nice to all ladies out there since you easily like and may eventually fall for another one. Once is enough. Twice is unforgivable. Better be good while you still have the chance.
As the saying goes :
Mahal mo siya
Mahal niya ay iba
But that is not totally my case. It is somehow more of :
Mahal niya ako
Mahal nang mahal mo ay iba
Haha! Anyone could make up a song for that? Complicated as it is.
Hahay..........Mysteries of life!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Second, I have come to realize that he is no good to me and we won't make up a great couple. I am not sour graping or what, I am just stating facts. I can't even understand why he keeps on criticizing my behaviour telling me that this is no good and I should change these and stuff when actually I just inherited all these traits or attitudes from him. He was the one who triggers me to act such way. I wonder if he hears himself?
And third, I don't know I just easily get irritated with him lately. And possibly he feels the same way with me. We just don't meet up. Our minds might meet on to some things but not our "batasan".
Well, oh well.... Clashing hearts....
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Monday, August 13, 2007
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
If only having them around is that simple and easy. I begin to ask why is there a need for families to be separated from each other because of work or ambition or whatever. If only things of life are these undemanding!
Well..well...Life oh life. I just hope for tatay berning and tiya doning the best of health always since they are kinda far from their sons and daughters.... and to Steve & Dina and to the 3J, a happy and fruitful life. Success to all of us guys! Cheers for our future! And till we meet again... :)
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Friday, July 20, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
I can’t imagine how fast things go. Just last night at almost 11pm I saw my brother and his buddy Atoy at the bakeshop. It was Atoy’s day off I suppose. He works as a Medical Transcriptionist at Global Solutions and is on a graveyard shift. Never in my mind it occur that that would be the last time that I am going to see him alive. I was even teasing him before I left them.
6 am today, I heard someone crying. I thought it was just from a housemate who was having a bad dream or something. That usually happens at our house actually. But then the cry was so loud that made me went out of my room up and see what’s really going on. I saw my brother crying on his knees and with my younger sister besides him trying to comfort. I asked what had happened and in between his sobbing, he uttered, “ Atoy was shoot three times along the highway of Liloan and was killed.
I can’t believe what I’ve heard. Unbelievable but this is it. This is really what is happening. I don’t know what to feel and what to say. I feel sorry for my brother who was traumatized with the incident and blaming himself for having done nothing. And I feel sorry for Atoy for dying so young and in that terrible way. I feel sorry for his family he left behind who loves him and treasures him. His mother who is kinda physically weak.
The case was said to be a robbery. Someone heard that Atoy was saying to the perpetrator to just take his mobile phone. Don’t know what other arguments they have that made this guy shoot him thrice. My brother upon hearing the explosion run to the nearest store and ask for some help. A couple of minutes rescuers came in and Atoy was brought to the hospital. But sad to say he was dead on arrival.
As it has always been said over and over again, life is too short. So treasure every moments you’ve got, gather moments while you may for you’ll never know if that moment will ever come again..
To Atoy may your soul finds peace in God’s arms. You will always remain in our hearts.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Saturday, June 2, 2007
I was never wrong with my insights! Women’s intuition…. Well, as it has always been said, believe in your instincts cause most of the time those were the truth as long as you have the basis. Though its kinda frustrating and somehow hurting me but I am grateful upon knowing the truth. But a part of me still questioning whether I was hearing the truth or was I some kinda being trapped? Was she just trying to see what my reactions would be or what? Whatever it is I still have to find out. I need to be vigilant.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
But what sounds silly was that after hearing all their stories, suddenly I felt some emptiness in me. Was I absorbing all the emotions they've felt. It was past 12 am already and still I can't sleep. I've called up my close friends just for nothing. Jen who knows me for quite a long time was even shocked why I was calling her at that wee hour knowing that I usually went early to sleep on weekdays. She instantly said "got some problems? Okey whatever it is I am willing to listen."I even sent a message to my officemate just telling him how I felt. Absorber as I am! Well that only shows I am that vulnerable yet trying to be invincible.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Friday, May 18, 2007
And I was on the hot seat again! My secret was revealed. We were on a night out with my two other officemates, just having a cup of coffee in a newly opened night market in the city after having our dinner at a Thai restaurant. After an hour of sitting outside the coffee shop and making a comment to the passersby, the lights were turned on me. I was kinda nervous when one of my officemate says she got one question for me and is hoping for a straight answer. And the question was fired which made me admit the truth. I know they know the answers already they just want a confirmation. Well, I trust the two ladies and I know that my secret is safe with them. Not that big deal actually it’s just that I don’t want everyone to know about it. I was glad to hear their feedbacks anyway.
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
The day we’ve all been waiting for has come. The wedding day of my friend (bride) and of my cousin (groom). Few months ago the barkada were so busy in helping the preparations, from the completion of the entourage, to the reception, printing of the invitation cards, making of the give aways and to the minute detail of the occasion to make it more meaningful and memorable.
The wedding ceremony starts at 2pm and I was so glad seeing the couple so excited and happy. You can see it in their eyes the love that’s burning inside (char!). But my sympathy was on the x-bf of the bride which happens to be my nephew (pamangkin sa pag agawan cause his mom is my first degree cousin). Somewhat I can relate to how he feels at that time. Though he was saying that he was over with her and he is perfectly fine, he cannot deny the fact that by just looking at him there’s still this pang of pain in his heart. During the wedding ceremony, on the exchanging of vows I saw him trying not to listen on the “I do’s” and was starting to make a conversation to the person next to him. Maybe by not hearing the “I do’s” would somehow lessen the pain he felt. What ate my heart out when I’ve heard somebody at my back saying “pity on him” (referring to the x bf). Hearing those words made me realized that I was definitely right with my decision as to not to attend to my ex-bf ‘s wedding cause you can’t help the people around you especially those who knew the story of your lovelife to feel pity or sorry on you no matter how you tried to insist that you are absolutely fine and was able to get over with it already.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
It was a perfectly fine day. The sun shines so brightly and I am all up ready to face another day of work with delight and excitement in my heart. I had my breakfast, kiss my mom goodbye and hurriedly went out of the house and catch the vehicle that would bring me to my workplace.
I was saying it was a perfectly fine day even if the day hasn’t end yet because this certain person just ruined it in a matter of seconds. I was so mad and frustrated. Mad because he was acting so unfair. I don’t know if he wakes up in the wrong side of the bed today and just trying to ruin someone else’s day too. All I know is I was also mad at him. Don’t wanna go into the details, I am just writing this to let my feelings out and I know I will be fine later.
Why am I always holding it back
Is it for fear of being hurt again
Fear that I might fall for the wrong person
But With a right reason?
Wrong person with a right reason
Sounds confusing, right?
Is there such a thing as wrong person?
There's none I guess
It's just that love did not work out
The way I expected it to be.
Many times I have loved and be loved
Fallen and get hurt
But certainly I stand up to those times I fall
With faith and courage to love
And face the world again.
But for how many times
And for how long this cycle goes on?
Anyone please tell me.
Cause my desire to Love
Is replaced with fear in my heart.